Chasin a dream i dont know if it exists

I just wrote all of this

With my own mental head

Going all week, cuz if i dont i get pissed

I be throwin a fit

Even go take a hit

Knowing its me, imma go n get a misfit this is ridiculousness

Its hits mixed with ignition spitting rhythms

When i get sick i just get a little angry when i cant spit!

Lotta ppl always askin

Man How u gonna make it in rappin?

They have asked this

About a thousand

Times so heres the way itll happen

Im not gonna sell my soul

Or let it go

Those question bro

Theyre never gonna be questionable

Already went thru hell so im not letting it go

I got my steppin stones

From prayer

Even tho im feeling like im losin my confidence

Feel like i lost it since

Feeling like im at the bottom of accomplishments

Gotta love it when

U wanna run n quit

Chasing after something idk if itll happen

Always thinking what if i domt make it into rappin

Ppl always judgin n they sayin i don't have it

Thank you so much for the love i tried to make it lavish

I been lookin at a door wonder if itll ever open

Feeling like im waiting for something that never ends up showing

Loeky needs to be flowing

Cuz when he feels the emotion

Only beats can restore him

Cuz the ghostly, phony, bony voice that keeps him unspoken

Cuz ppl think the soul just

Needs to be sold what

Kind of evil u posin?

U really thiink i wud go out there n  geeve him my soul n then just go leave when its over?

What demons u holding?

I wont agree to this oath cuz

Then the demons will own ya

Id rather cope with, emotions, to go n feelimg like im owin, n soulless

Look at nf he be growin hes owned it

Look at witt he even shows it hes hoping

So dont ever mention bout the messes n the stresses n the things i shud be doing

Imma stay up in my passion that is writing making music whoo!

U know this is how it be

When negativity

Tries to be friends with me

Begging me endlessly

Not to be enemies

Ok well then we'll see

If he can feel me!

This is the recipe

1 beat, an mc, pass me, the mic please

I need quiet please my mind seems to fright me blindly

A tight leash on my sheet n 9 keys n arms reach n like 39 feet

To find out everything is negativity all up in the mind

So imma go ahead n try

To Do whatever i gotta do to get rid of these lies

That r crawling all inside

Giving me the feeling im not worth it n id be askin why

This how negative replied

Take a look at ur self

Anxiety beside me look at how bad he has damaged ur mental health!

Ow

That hit me hard

Less confident to go spit these bars

I guess my dreams they will be stars

I can't reach them he slayed me with deep scars

Then he skinned my heart

Just to show how far

He can go till he takes up my soul just to go tear it apart

U really thinking pain wud ever be a thing to use against me, please don't start!

Alot of pain that i have witnessed

N it started with religion

N just making bad decisions

I just thot that i was livin

Ok really who is kiddin

Did i ever really mention

I destroyed pain! In my heart he is finished

In my mind hes beginning

Taking tolls make it cold and behold pain has rolled up now in the kitchen

N hes burning up my lyrics n my beats n if u listen

Explosions all in my mind man its armageddon

So how am i supposed to get it?

Ik a way to get it

I defeated enemies that tried to get the best of me

N if ud try to measure the amount of anger that i had in me definitely

See armageddon in my brain n its what i call a masterpiece my soul is what i have to keep!

So. im. answering my question n oh please

Dont ever mention bout the messes n the stresses n the things i shud be doing

Imma stay up in my passion that is writing making music whoo!