I don't need none of your pity

You don't want none of my pain

I just need somebody who could have listened

I just need somebody who understand

I've got a lot on my mind and tripping

I'm stuck in a cycle of selfish addiction

I have been blessed but my curse is I'm living

For less then my purpose

I'm working for nothing I'm worthless

Sipping on bourbon and scotch

Till I'm barely alive

I'm abandoning God

Feel like driving 100

While closing my eyes

Till I'm crossing the line

And my body is thrown to the side and I DIE

Better then living a lie

Better then living a lie

I'm surprised i still try in the morning

I wake up my body still soaring

From last nights endorphins

I'm covered in flesh

I want a holiday

I want some peace

You gave me grace

I deserve none of it

I gave you nothing but faith and belief

How could a king give a damn about me

How could I not put my faith in a god so amazing

I'm lazy deceitful a heat full of greed

Lust for the bodies of all that I see

Till my heart stop

Till the last breath I got

I'm proclaiming you my God

But I fall short

Then repent and I want more

I'm a man and I'm weak

And I'm sorry I cant keep a promise

I'm chasing the commas

I vomit these stupid melodics

While dreaming of profits

But scared to commit

Split between living for you I'm in sin

I remember waking up laughing

Now I’m only waking up in pain

I remember victim hood before it was a fashion

I remember when I didn’t worry bout a thing

I remember when it didn’t matter you were black

I remember when it didn’t matter you were white

I remember when we didn’t flatter all the chatty chatty chatter bout how color was the best way to define

I remember contact sports

Where you earned your award

Don’t remember any medals for the 4th placers

I remember bullied cuz I’m short

Did it suck hell yeah but it Made me tough

I bet y’all couldn’t take my luck

Cut my trust up in one night yelling keep your love

When I hop on a mic I don’t hold my tongue

Ima probably die by the words I sung

Singing Run little boy run run run run

I got the gun gun gun gun

I set the bar in the garrison

The shot rung through the air from this pair of lungs

You compare me to me I’m a terror son

The fairest one

Begun by the only son

The new shalom has come

To repair ones

Who death has long

Had his sight set upon

Since I believe Adam and Eve

Were deceived

By the serpent in the garden saying eat from the tree

And sleep truly is the cousin of death

why you think they pray for peace when they lay you to rest

I'm a mess I

Thank god for the Messiah

Who died for my sins gave me new life

I cry out for my heart full of hate why

I still live for myself blame it on pride

I don’t know why I do all the things you do

I don’t want to be like you

Maybe I lie to myself

Wake up in denial

Come to think of it that’s true

Wake up in a mood like

Ima roll the dice

I could minimize

All the Ill advice

End up penalize 25 to life

Spend another night this state of mind of mine

Hardly stressing man I might be fine